College is not for me... feel bummed and unsuccessful...🤕😔

School has literally been my everything. I’ve complained about it and wished I were done just like everyone else, but at the end of the day that’s what I was good at. I was an a and b student throughout all my years of school and in high school I took all the health sciences set on the fact that I wanted to be a nurse. I even took college classes as dual credit classes and do amazing in them during my junior and senior year. Now as an early graduate and being a full time college student this semester I realized this is not for me. Everyone is saying it’s just because I had a literal semester from hell with two monsters for professors, but honestly I don’t think it is... at this point I’ve had to drop two classes and lost all of my scholarships. On one hand it was the schools part for fucking up my accounts, financial aid, and enrollment process, but on the other hand I’ve literally lost all motivation I had. I no longer want to become a nurse, I don’t know what I want to be. I don’t know whether to try again next semester in August or just work and do my think until I figure out what I for sure want to do. It just sucks because for as long as I could remember I wanted to be a trauma nurse and all through high school I just wanted to be in college learning my major, and now it’s all gone and I feel like a fucking joke and failure. Everyone is getting acceptance letters and excited to start their major and career and I’m just going to be another hometown bum it seems like. I found a new hobby after buying a cricut and getting into vinyl and epoxy and honestly that’s what makes me happy. I’m trying to start selling on Etsy or Facebook or anything just as a side hustle and hobby. I would love for that to be my job one day, but it sounds like a fucking joke that I want to sell cups and stickers on Etsy when I don’t even have a career or have any interest and motivation in college. I haven’t told my parents because I know they will literally kill me and probably force me to go back but I don’t know. It just sucks...