Hi everyone

This is my first time on the group and posting. I’m hoping to find people who understand what I’m going through who I can talk to about it.

I had my most recent miscarriage 6 months ago and I’m having a really bad day emotionally.

I have no one to talk to who will understand what I’m going through. My husband is so loving and supportive but will never fully understand.

Over the last 3 years, I have had a miscarriage each year, all early and I don’t have any children yet. I just turned 34 and feel so much pressure to try again because of my age but I’m so terrified of the pain I’ll feel if I have to go through losing another baby.

I suffer from PCOS and am really struggling with depression today.

I can’t stop crying and while I am so happy for all my friends and family who are having and have babies, my heart breaks so much every time I see a post of a scan or a picture of a baby. It hurts so much and then I fall back into the depression hole.

I don’t know if anyone will read this, I guess I just wanted to share my story and not feel quite so alone in this painful journey.

I know that when people tell you success stories about people who miscarried multiple times and then had healthy babies, comes from a place of love and support but honestly, it just makes me feel worse because knowing their success stories doesn’t mean I will get mine and I’m too scared to allow myself to hope. It’s agony.

Anyway, if you read this, thank you and I’m here if you feel like me and need to talk.