What do y'all think

My grandpa passed away this morning and I'm not really feeling anything about it because the last time I saw him I was probably 6 or 7 years old(21 now). I don't remember him at all. I've cried because I can't imagine how my mom is feeling, but that's it. I may cry again because I might get sad that I didn't know him, but again, that's it.

When I cry I don't let it all out in front of people, including family, and my mom thinks that's unhealthy. There are only two, sometimes three, people that I will let see my emotions and tears, which I think is fine. It's not like I hold in my emotions and tears for a long time, I just wait until I'm alone because I prefer to deal on my own if I don't have those people around that I feel comfortable seeing me with my walls down.