I don’t know what to do

I been in a relationship for 10 years.

Would you call it cheating if a men is texting with other females?? Also in some of those textes with females send nudes .

I have 5 kids with this men!!!! I tried my best on giving it all but I am mentally tired 😓 of all this bs he has done to me. I don’t even know if I still love him or not . I fell like I don’t even understand my self I am so confused . I don’t know how to handle the situation any more. My kids love his dad and I don’t want to hurt them 2 of my kids are really attachment to him. I don’t have the support of no one and don’t have any one to talk to about the situation I am leaving in. I told him today to let’s try counseling but he said he don’t want to.

I need some advice!!!