My husband is amazing and yet I don’t wanna be with him.. 😞

This man does every little thing for me. He buys me whatever I want/need. I haven’t had to pay A DIME for anything while finishing my last two years of college. He bought me two cars. Does anything i ask of him. Loves me. Is very attracted to me. Is willing to pay off all my student loan debt..

I just can’t make myself sexually attracted to him. Ive tried everything. I’m in therapy. We’ve tried spicing things up. I just don’t see him as attractive for me. I feel like we share nothing in common he’s 7 years older than me and just in a different place in life as well. We were good for a while and then we weren’t I expressed these feelings to him and I started therapy and medication for my depression and anxiety.. I have been told by my therapist and my friends that he’s what’s best for me and my friends say I’d be stupid to leave him. And like they’re not wrong..

Now I’m 3 months pregnant. Before you yell at me, he’s really wanted a baby and I’m just being told that I should stay with him and make it work and I just kind of have been going with the motions hoping it would change.. and it just isn’t. And now I’m terrified because having a baby of course makes separating harder in the future. And like I really have no reason to leave him besides my own selfish ones.. he gives me a good life and he will give our kid a great life..

But I just feel like I have to give up ever being with someone I’m attracted to, feeling passion, and excitement from someone forever.. and I’m just sad.. idk why I’m like this. He’s so great but I just am not attracted to him anymore.. i get grossed out whenever we do anything physical.. I feel like it’s not fair to leave him but it’s not fair to stay either.. I know right now I don’t really have a choice with being pregnant. But idk I’m sorry I’m just venting..

I have no income. I planned to work after I graduated this week but now I’m pregnant and corona virus and stuff. I don’t have my own money. I just don’t know what the right decision is but I cry everyday over it.. and I feel like I have no one to talk to about it bc I’m either told I’m stupid if I leave bc he gives me the world or my therapist just says no you do love him and you are attracted to him and it’s just your fear and depression.. but I don’t feel depressed I’m honestly in a good headspace.. idk again just venting..