I need a pick me up !!😭

So I had a miscarriage last Friday night and some days I feel okay but today I just feel a overwhelming sadness and it sucks cause I don’t want my son to feel my sadness! But my heart is just still so broken and I’m feeling depressed a little I have my highs and lows I was just so excited and that excitement was just ripped away from me and in some ways I feel like it’s my fault like maybe if I took a colder bath or ate differently or something my SO says it’s okay and that it’s not my fault and there’s nothing I could do but i just can’t help but feel like I should have done something different!!!!!

I feel sad that my baby lost his sibling I know he definitely doesn’t understand but I kinda felt like he new because he when I found out and told him mommy’s pregnant he was so happy !