Am I completely selfish?

So this is my second Mother’s Day. First year as a single mom. Last year, I was with my daughter’s dad and even though our relationship was really bad, he went out of his way to make it a special day for me.

This year, the thought kind of depresses me. I know it’s not about gifts or being spoiled or anything, but the appreciation is nice... I know that’s selfish. My daughter doesn’t have anyone to have her make gifts with so I won’t have any homemade gifts that she “made” when she was so little and idk, it just makes me sad.

Am being completely selfish? Are my feelings valid? I KNOW I am so blessed and lucky to be a mom and I swear I am not trying to say otherwise, but I just have a little heaviness on my heart.

Ugh even typing this out I feel like a terrible person