Am I wrong?

My boyfriend is really mad at me right now.

My best friend lives in Nevada and I live in Idaho. We've been best friends since birth and our moms have been best friends since they were kids. Safe to say they're family. My best friends boyfriend texted my last night and said that he wants to fly me out to Nevada in August. (as long as everything with covid has settled) I said that I would love to go because 1. My best friend flies here every year and I feel that it's my turn to fly out there and 2. I need a freaking vacation and to see my best friend. I told her boyfriend that I would love to but I just have to figure a few things out first.

I asked my boyfriend if we would be cool with it and he totally flipped out on me and said that I can't go because I don't pay enough bills to go. I only make $800 a month and he makes $4,000 a month. I spend my every cent on my car bills, food, utilities, shit that we want... ect. Yes, he does pay thr rent, internet, more food, shit that we both want, utilities.. ect. And he said that I always make plans to go places and I'm always gone "every single weekend" and that if I loved him I wouldn't go and that I need to start thinking about him more. Also, he said that he never goes out because he's always thinking of me. Which is true he never goes out because he's not from this city so a his friends are in a different city. But, when I do go out I always ask him if he wants to join and he says no, or if he does go he's a grumpy party pooper and I spend more time trying to keep him calm and entertained than actually enjoying my time out.

ANYWAYS, he said that I can't go (in August) because I already "went out" last weekend. (I was gone for 3 hours helping my brother with something) and I can't go because I'm getting my tattoo touched up on Saturday (which isn't going to take a whole lot of time) and that counts as going out with my friends and having a grand time. So he starts yelling at me and saying that I can either be with him or go to Nevada. But if I go to Nevada and we break up then I have to pay half of all the bills. I've been trying to pick up extra hours at work as often as I can but he doesn't like it when I'm at work when he's not at work so I have to leave after he does and come home before does and i can't work weekends because if I do then I guess that means I don't care about him.

Either way whatever happens to us I guess I don't care. I already told him i was going weather he liked it or not and hes really mad at me for it. But after 5 years of his manipulative and controlling behavior, I'm so over it! Just had to vent amd get this off my chest. I still feel sad and I feel like I'm wrong for not wanting to go. And my best friend told me "No matter what, I'll be at your wedding, it's up to [my boyfriend] if he's going to be there or not." And she has a point. I just want to stop feeling so guilty, it's just hard. :(