(TW- abuse, narcissist, emotional and sexual) A decade of bullshit is not enough for him.

I'm pretty sure my narcissist ex sent me a mysterious birthday card.

It was a cardboard rectangle with printed out words and a meme and a stamp. No handwriting. No return address.

We broke up 2 years ago for good. I last texted him at the beginning of covid and he was being manipulative and I shut him down. I've been with another guy over 9 months.

I don't know if it's nice or if I'm kinda irritated. But probably both.

He has sent my mail with no return address before. He sent me a book for Christmas when we were not speaking for a long time, after he tried to coerce me into a sexual situation I didn't want when I'd told him I was seeing someone else and would feel too bad.

I texted him this year, I guess I needed more closure on the matter, well that was stupid because he yelled at me about the past when I was crying from a bad toothache.

Before that he showed up to a funeral he wasn't invited to. And people think it's totally fine for abusers to show up to your family events long after not even speaking because he could be grieving. Well that's understandable but also, no. It's my family and I deserve safety and privacy.

I'm so tired of this motherfucker being on my mind, and coming back into my life to fuck shit up and start more shit.

Proof that love is not enough.

He ruined so many things for me for 10 years and he doesn't get anything else.

When I think about it I get so mad. When we dated he tortured me mentally. And now I have flashbacks and panic & think people are going to get mad at me all the time.

I just want to be well. He has hurt me so much.

Like yeah, actually how fucking dare he mail me a birthday card to my family's address. >:(

Just let me live my life! I'm already haunted!

Whatever. He has less power all the time.