So much mom guilt...I’m disgusted with myself

I have so much mom guilt over circumcising my son....I wish I could turn back time and stop it from happening. Has anyone felt this way? How do you get through it? I honestly just don’t deserve him, i abused him by doing this and someone should just come take him from me and make sure I never have another child again....

The problem is I did a completely selfish unnecessary procedure without even realizing he didn’t need it and he was perfect the way he is 💔 I feel so horrible for putting him through that unnecessary pain and I feel like he’ll grow up knowing I did it for no legit reason and hate me. I’ve been struggling with this for awhile now....