Misconception of anxiety!?

So as a person who has anxiety(PP depression and anxiety)has to take medication for it or else can’t function probably it just kinda annoying when someone who doesn’t have actual anxiety tells me you don’t pray hard enough, why can’t you just stop your anxiety with faith, or just don’t think about it? My SIL always has to make these comments that she has “anxiety” hasn’t even gone to the doctor or anything and has to tell me I am weak and don’t have enough faith like no if I could I would do it in a heartbeat even if I try to explain it my husband telling me you’re breathing you don’t look like you are having an anxiety attack,anxiety feels like it can break me sometimes and sometimes it does and I would give anything to be normal and be a better mom to my kids, I hate that I can’t sleep most of the times because I feel my baby girl will stop breathing, I hate when I have an anxiety attack I have to clean the entire house and can’t stop even if my csection and body hurts or else it won’t go away just because I don’t have a “traditional anxiety attack” during these times it’s so much more difficult dealing with a mental illness and especially giving birth during this time, I sometimes do think I’m not physically hurt why do I complain sometimes I’m lucky people are dying and my mental illness just makes me feel like I’m dying but I’m fine,sometimes I wish I could kind of restart myself because I’m so broken I feel no one can fix me anymore, please don’t hate on me I just needed some to write this down postpartum depression and anxiety are a battle everyday also I know I am rambling