Feeling guilty

My husband and 13 month old are sitting down having dinner while I’m in another room with an over poured glass of wine.

My 13 month old is in the phase of testing limits and tantrums. My anxiety for some reason is triggered by loud noises and he has a very high pitches scream when there’s a tantrum. The scream goes over and over again. I can feel my jaw clench so tight when it’s happening and my heart races while I feel my anxiety increasing.

I feel so guilty that I’m in here with wine. I felt like I needed to sit down away from everything for a few minutes to calm down.

Is it bad that I have wine when I’m feeling upset?

I very rarely drink but I still feel bad.