🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️ Googled Him UPDATE: The Crush Is GONE

So I made a post ago saying there was guy from my job I was crushing on and how I gave him my number and he never said anything.

So yesterday he put his number directly into my phone after we chatted about stuff I need to give him when I do write offs and art related things. This was the most we talked and I picked up on his vibe a bit more and realized wow he’s more forward than I thought and me being a dominant woman I kinda was digging it, which I would normally find obnoxious but I got turned on. Which TMI I never get turned on by anyone or so easily, I’ve struggled sexually so this new development was like a win for me.

I texted him this morning in regards to work stuff that turned into some light flirty. I was all bubbly and happy and shit AND THEN I GOOGLED HIM.

Only to find out dude has been arrested A LOT. Last time he was arrested was in 2014. Most of the charges were petty theft, grand theft, drug possession of weed, meth, opioids, etc, resisting arrest, aggravated assault on law enforcement and wait for it aggravated battery on a pregnant woman.

I feel so drained after seeing all the charges and the countless mugshots. I know I can’t judge someone without learning their side or treating people based on their past faults cause I’ve done somethings I’m not proud of that still affect my life. But damnnnnnn! The first guy I’m not only physically attracted but sexually into for the first time in 2 1/2 years that I don’t want to run away from has a LONG criminal history 😭

This gif is a literal personification on how I feel right now.

UPDATE: Dude is apparently dating someone again which I wouldn’t have noticed cause the brief looks and light flirting continued from him even after he made it Facebook official days ago. He’s apparently dating the former assistant manager who others say is a little crazy and always claims she wants to break up with him and is wishy washy as they come. They also met in AA, which isn’t me shading anyone but I can’t help draw from the stereotype of two addicts dating each other can be intense and rocky. Again they’re apparently always breaking up and getting back together. PLUS he apparently has kids, and any man who doesn’t tell me that or gush about his children is sus to me. My brother always withheld he had children to women because he didn’t want them to know how shitty of a father he was and I guess subconsciously am applying it to him too. THAT CRUSH HAS DIED AWHILE AGO 🤣