The confession 2

When we reach his house his wonderful mother greets me and we talk for about a half hour. I hadn’t seen her in about 4 weeks so we had a lot to catch up on. She’s basically my second mother. Well, my only good mother anyway. Lincoln and I headed upstairs into his bedroom. I’ve been in here so many times it’s basically my own bedroom. I collapse onto his bed and make fake snoring noises trying to get out of working. Lincoln laughs his beautiful laugh again and throws a pillow at me.

“Ow, dude....that hurt,” I say holding a hand to my heart in defeat. I dramatically collapse to my knees. “The pain!” I say. We both laugh.

“Come on man, let’s work. We can have a break later,” he says to me after about 5 minutes of laughing at each other and being stupid. After about 3 hours of work we realise that the sun has started to go down and it was getting dark. Well he spent about 3 hours working. I spent half the time looking at him when he wasn’t paying attention. He was so good looking it was insane!

“Um, Lincoln. Can I stay over?” I ask nervously when we’d finished. I didn’t want to go home. I hated home.

“Sure dude,” Lincoln says with a warm smile. He knows I don’t like home. But he’s never asked about it or pushed it. Which makes me realise yet again how much of a good person he is. I smile back.

“Can we have a break now, I’m dying,” I say laughing. He laughs with me. We jump onto his king size bed and sit cross legged. He’s one of the guys who could sleep until noon if he wanted. I stare at him again. His hair is dropped over his eyes again, and his glowing skin makes his beep blue eyes glow. I smile wildly.

“What?” He laughs.

“Oh nothing,” I look down trying to hide my smile. I look back up and his face changes strangely. Like he had just seen something bizarre.

“You ok?” I ask him suddenly nervous if he knew something about me. Does he know about my feelings. But he just nods.

“I um just realised, that Lacy took the spare mattress when she went to her friends house. Um...do you care if you just stayed with me in my bed” Lincoln says while fiddling with the doona cover of he’s bed spread. Oh. My. God! In a bed with Lincoln!!! I don’t know if it’s a good idea though. I may do or say something I’ll regret that will show my feelings for him or something stupid that would just freak him out. But I can’t decline because then he’d know that I was uncomfortable cause I have feelings for him. Because friends wouldn’t get “uncomfortable” in these situations. I take a deep breath and try to sound casual as I possibly can.

“Oh yeah that’s fine,” I say. Pretty amazed about how I kept cool. He tells me that he’s just going to let his mum know I watch him walk away as he leaves the room. I lay down on the bed and throw my hands over my face. I’m such a mess. Suddenly the weight of my life falls over me. My hands start to shake over my face and tears start to prick my eyes. I quickly wipe my eyes and I dig my hands into my jean pockets to seem normal when Lincoln comes back. I blink rapidly to get rid of my teary eyes. I can’t show this side to him. I hear the door creak open and I see Lincoln coming in. He didn’t seem to notice anything different about me. Lincoln comes over to his bed and lays down next to me. We are so close our shoulders are almost touching. My heart starts to race. I haven’t been this close to him before. He props himself up with his elbow and stares at me. I watch his eyes travel over my face. Along my jaw, to my lips. I was worried he could hear the rapid beat of my heart. I can feel myself blush. I look away from his stare and I cough trying to distract myself and stop blushing. But when I look back at him, he’s still looking at me. The look in his eyes sends a rush of warmth through my chest. I also prop myself up on my elbow and stare at him. Oh faces are roughly half a metre apart but it feels like they’re so much further. We’re lost in each other’s eyes. Then he smiles at me again. That god damn smile. I can’t help myself, I’m trying to stop but I’ve seem to have lost all control of my body. I shift a little bit closer to him. He doesn’t stop me. After about 5 seconds he also comes about a bit closer.