Engagement off

I’m truly heartbroken, my fiancé (26M) just ended things yesterday. It was a truly toxic relationship but I’m honestly so fucked up that I’m used to being sad and the empty feeling that never leaves. Basically he was super controlling, manipulative and narcissistic. I’m in no way, shape or form perfect, because I’m not the most loving person towards my partner(s) but that’s on trauma, I have intimacy issues and Few other shades of fuckery. I knew that this was coming, because we’ve been on a bad place for months (since february) and honestly I don’t believe that he was the one for me, and being completely honest with myself I think that I never felt so.

He never listened to me or gave me what I needed to feel content or happy, not much seeing as my love language is words of affirmation. He often disrespected me or was rude towards me.

Sorry for the long rant, I just feel so bad right now although my brain knows that this was for the best.