Anyone here try vbac? I'm honestly traumatized from my last pregnancy. And I'm just wanting everything to go smoothly.

Went into labor at 41 weeks. My body was doing everything it was supposed to but the baby was still pretty high. I was actually dilated up to a 9 but the baby's heartrate was acting crazy. So we ended up with a emergency c section. And I felt everything! They had to hold me down on the table. Then finally the drugs kicked in. She pooped in the womb and aspirated on it so she was immediately sent to the NICU then transferred to another hospital. I had her at 8am and didn't get to hold her till 130am the next day. I bled a lot and ended up getting a blood transfusion.

I want to try vaginal birth again but I don't want to have to end up with a emergency c section again☹ so I've been kinda leaning towards just getting a planned c section. But my doc really wants me to try vaginal birth again. I just want my baby to be okay and I want to be able to hold her right after😭