I have no friends

I feel so alone. Growing up, my birthday parties literally only consisted of one friend. No one else ever came. Most birthdays it was just my family that was in the house. That broke me as I got older. I never wanted to celebrate my birthday when I became a teen. I knew no one would show. I had "friends", but they were never my friends. I look back and realized they used me. They would be my friend one day and bully me the next. For no reason at all. I'm glad I don't have contact with any of them. I'm an adult now and my child's birthday is coming up. I don't have friends, so I invited family. I have them weeks in advance and now I find out they all have to work. No one bothered saying anything to me, I found out through my parents. So now it's going to be super small and the friends my child does have (too young for school), live too far. So basically it's my life all over again but it's happening to my child and honesty I'm just so depressed over it. Why is my life repeating in my child's life. What did I do or my child do to deserve literally no one coming to celebrate my little ones birthday. I just want my baby to have a great time, but only my parents are coming. It's in a few days and I'm just so sad. I've been crying on and off. I remember my birthdays so vividly, just me at the table, a few family members. I wanted different for my child, but apparently that's not going to happen anytime soon. I just really needed to get that out. Even if no one reads this, I feel a little better letting it out. For those that read it, thanks for reading it. If you felt the same or have been in the same boat. I'm here for you. Seems like that's all I'll ever be. A supporting friend to everyone and get nothing in return.

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I want to thank you so much for the advice. I truly appreciate it.