3 months pregnant and alone

I never thought it’d be like this. Me and my baby’s father are no longer together and idk if we ever will get back together. We were kinda okay before this bit when we discovered we were pregnant everything changed. He wasn’t sure if he was ready to be a dad yet and he feels like I forced him, trapped him, etc. now our relationship is ruined because it became destructive. We’ve gotten into more than a few fight last since I’ve been pregnant. I feel like he’s been talking to other women because he believes in polygamy and it’s just been so much.

I never expected to go through this on my own. I’ve just been sad, emotional, and wanting him here with me despite everything that’s happened. As I said before, I’m unsure if there ever is a comeback after this. We’ll coparent for the baby’s sake but the baby isn’t here yet. And I’m forced to deal with hormones, and sickness, not being able to eat, and missing him all on my own. I hate this... I feel like I can’t even enjoy my pregnancy cause I’m worried about him way more than he’s even worried about me. Sorry about this long post. And I made it anonymous because I’m ashamed.

Sorry all.