First month of failure 😞

So last month we finally decided it was time to TTC #2. I was hoping we were good this month. I started getting cramps midway through my cycle (never happens—usually I get those cramps like day before period). Had NAUSEA on and off. Cramping with no sign of period. And then my period was late (it’s NEVER late if anything it’s been always early). 1 day, 2 days, 3 days, 1 WEEK. I finally mustered up the courage to take a pregnancy test since I’m exactly a week late. I sit down on the toilet, and BAM, period ☹️

And suddenly all those memories of trying for #1 came rushing back. The heartbreak of each time AF showed after being hopeful of symptoms that I (must have) been imagining.

I’m not ready for that roller coaster :( and now to add the extra layer of complexity with breastfeeding at the same time. And I can’t sulk and be depressed each time—I have to get out of that bathroom and put a smile back on and play with the precious miracle I DO currently have ❤️

Idk why I’m writing all this. Maybe to get it off my chest while I sit in the bathroom mustering up the courage to face another month while my baby is knocking on the bathroom door on the other side.

Don’t worry LO, mommy will give u a sibling when the time is right ❤️