Kayaking trip

Every year my husband goes on a fun trip and leaves me home with the kids when I don’t even get a few hours to myself much less a day. I birthed a baby this year and run my own business from home and I’m fucking tired of expecting to let him happily go as if he deserves it whenever I wouldn’t get the same luxury. This is a whole day he gets to do something fun and a whole day extra that I’m expected to go without any extra little help he offers. He doesn’t even take me out on a date much less let me have a few hours to myself. But if I tell him he can’t go it’ll be because I’m a bitch. There’s no “tell him you get a day if he gets a day” no. Not an option. He’s told me I’ll get that same luxury for 3 years and I never have. I’m fucking over it.