i can’t

So I was with this boy my first boyfriend relationship we had sex with out a condom

For the longest I thought I was pregnant but we found out I wasn’t

We had sex again with out a condom and so basically I started having problems I started having weird discharge, my glands were swollen from my uterus, I was itchin and burnin and stanky fishy down there

I went to the doctors, I got a whole PAP and examination as well as testing

my results Came back negative today (6-17-20) for a couple things like:

Clamydia,ghonoria, syphilus and stuff

BUUUT what we were actually looking to see is if I have herpes

So I’ve been struggling with being positive and having my confidence I feel worth less and useless

I’ve told my sibling I love and tell everything to and she basically told me I was pathetic

I’m 17 and I’m scared I know it’s disgusting I know I am and I know right now I’m hurt I’m in pain emotionally and physically

My results are going to take another week to see if I have herpes for sure

But now I believe I have it on my face

....... I’m scared I’m just scared

I’m hoping god helps me with this because at this point I can’t Handel