URGENT I BROKE MY HYMEN

Okay so i’m 15 and lately i’ve been experimenting with masturabtion. Today I was trying using a toothbrush handle for penetration and afterwards when I used the restroom, this red stringy thing came out, and my underwear had some blood stains on them, so i’m pretty sure I broke it. (I won’t use the toothbrush or any other non sex toy if I masturbate from now on since you guys say it’s not safe. Thanks for letting me know. I’ll be more careful) I know this shouldn’t be a huge deal but i’m saving myself for marriage and now I feel like somehow I dishonored my vow by doing that. I mean I know there are other, non sexual ways to break your hymen but I still feel guilty. And on top of that, my family is really religious and would freakkkk if they found out I masturbated and whatnot. Part of me is saying I should stop experimenting and save whatever I have left for my future husband. It kinda feels like I betrayed him? Idk. But on the other hand, it’s normal, right? Why should I feel bad about enjoying myself and trying things with my own body? So idk what to do and i’m kinda feeling really weird and anxious about it rn. Please if you can, give me any advice you have and some comforting words. I could really use it. Plus, I can’t tell anyone irl I know about this so I only have you guys to talk to about stuff like this. Oh and thanks for taking your time to read this.

Edit: Thank you to everyone who responds. I would reply to your comments but i’m too embarrassed to show my profile by commenting. I really appreciate all of you guys.