Another heartbreak

I’m sitting here at the doctors office while I wait to have my blood test for hcg levels to confirm what I already know....that I’ve lost another one. This is my 4th consecutive early miscarriage and I am besides myself with grief. I’m watching all these pregnant women walk through with their big beautiful bellies and wonder if they realize how lucky they are. I can’t help but feel like a broken person. All the testing I’ve been through has found nothing so far. I haven’t been able to keep a pregnancy past 5 weeks and I’m devastated that I have to keep living this nightmare over and over. I just want to be a mama so badly. I just don’t know what to do anymore. 💔💔💔