Having a MOMENT.

We live far from family and friends. Last time I saw anyone was my parents at Christmas where we thankfully got to announce we were pregnant. Haven’t seen anyone but my husband and drs since for the obvious reasons. This is my first and it’s all really getting to me— couldn’t do the gender reveal we wanted, couldn’t have a baby shower like we wanted, I’ve had to go to all appts alone, basically as I’m sure you all relate to just haven’t been able to celebrate as we should be. I haven’t even been able to go into a store to shop for baby girl (hubby is high risk so we order all groceries and such). Just not how i expected anything to go. And then because we live a good 12 hours from family they can’t even meet her when she’s born— and when will they get to if Covid is going to be worse in the fall/winter? It’s just making me so sad. This has been a hard pregnancy to begin with. I was in bed from Christmas until 16 weeks sick with MS, then the horrible HB, now I have GD, yesterday someone wrecked my car... bills are adding up. Everything feels like a mess. We had planned on moving to live near family before baby was born but Covid also ruined that. Getting maternity photos done was going to be my one normal thing— I can’t do that now because some moron in my terrible neighborhood wrecked my car and the insurance deductible is too much for us to also afford maternity pictures. I’m so excited for baby girl, but this is just one of those days where i can’t help but cry and cry and cry because everything is just a lot to handle all at once. And hello hormones. Anyway just needed to vent because I’m sure I’m not alone but I’m sure as heck feeling alone. Trying to not let it get to me and stress my body out but I’m struggling, especially today 😅