I need advises from a Muslim or anybody

I met this guy 2019 summer we hang out and he told me he can’t have a girlfriends because he’s Muslim I respected that but we fell hard for each other ,after hanging for a while i ask him ‘’what are we’’ 😭he wasn’t giving me an answer but i told him I like you but I can’t deal with this anymore I feel like we doing friends with with benefits and I’m not with it we stop talking for a week he later ask me to be his girlfriend but secretly because he’s parents are Muslim Muslim 😭 it was going great until he start feeling bad and push me away I love that man and I know he love me too but I feel like i was forcing him in a relationship which I wasn’t he could’ve happily leave me alone... so I told him we could be friends but not like a sexual way but just friends we stop talking for at least three weeks after that he would Check up on me bring me food just little and be romantic and that make me fall I love with him more because I never met someone so generous like him . Around December we couldn’t stay away from each other . To this year to him feeling bad and distancing himself to me getting mad and stop talking to him but every time we always find each other and I fell in love with him more we cant stay away from each other but i respect his religion because I’m a Christian and I understand .

But I’m tired going back in forth with him And some part of me just feel like if he wanted to be with me It would’ve happen.

I really don’t know what to do ???? Any advice