Postnatal Depression fucking sucks

I don’t love my baby that I once had a fierce love for when she was inside of me.

I feel so fucking low. I feel like I’m suffocating. I feel like I can’t cope and I don’t even want to cope. I want to pack a bag and just leave. For the first time in my life I hate life.

Yes I’ve spoken to my doctor and yes he gave me antidepressants but they take so long to work if they are going to even work at all. I’m feeling worse by the day.