Is it normal to not be emotional my 1st pregnancy ?

So we were trying for soooooo many years to get pregnant.. I always wanted to be a mommy ever since after high school to be honest but it never happened when it happened for most of my friends..i cried all these years and were so depressed that i coulsbt have kids at all i doubted myself... so this year idk what happened didnt try anything new or did nothing but we are now pregnant and im due In September. I am super happy but the thing is i dont feel emotional about it? When i found out i cried but amongst myself 😐 & when i told everyone i just shed a tear. Then my gender reveal i wasnt excited... idk maybe im just in shock still that i will be having my own kid.. like it hasnt hit me yet. I feee like im in a dream and its not real. I just dont want to get my hopes up pretty much.. i guess for me is “ill believe it until i see it.” Which means , when i give birth and actually see him I’ll probably bust out crying and thats when itll hit me😭

I just had given my hopes for nothing these past years and dont hope for anything. I am really positive though dont get me wrong. Is there anyone like this???