DROPPING BODY WEIGHT & BAE WEIGHT

I really want to feel good again. Im talking losing weight and just feeling good inside and out. I think about all the things that could make me feel better and not so fuckin depressed. My kitchen is a mess and i hate that. Ive been on my P for like a week and a half and my boyfriend of 5 years has not really stepped up to do it on his own. We have a daughter and it just seems like hes soooo lazy with everything. Sloppy AF. I want to he better. I feel like soon im gonna have to let this shit go. Smh easier said than done. So i dont need a bunch of people yellin "leave him!". I just want someone whos gonna b on the same page cuz im trying to get serious about myself. I have goals. And he says "oh yea me too, weightloss, stop smoking the whole 9 im ready" 😴😒 yall he says this way to much and doesnt budge. Sigh. I think covid is messing with my mental as well.

Just want to be healthier all around. I know this post is everywhere but i just needed to vent and i dont feel like putting any thought into this post.