My wife left me after a miscarriage.

My wife and I went through our 5th miscarriage just recently. We both have been so depressed. She had been tested for everything and so far everything came back normal. Even the chromosomes on tissue come back normal. She broke hard core and I didn’t do anything about it because I was hurting too. I kept to myself. When she was bawling her eyes out, I went straight to drinking. We both sat and watched everyone around us having children and such. Her sister just got married and is expecting her second kid soon. My wife told me that her heart is giving out. I don’t know what she meant by that. Then I saw one of my friends become a dad and the I broke. My wife saw. A few weeks later she had been distant with me. And I had somewhat been the same. I ended up telling a friend that I wish I could become a dad to my own child and I didn’t even think my wife was

watching. I ended up losing my wife. She wrote me a letter saying that she was sorry that she couldn’t make me become a dad and that she was sorry that she kept miscarrying and that she was sorry that she doesn’t have working reproductive organs. She said she loves me very much and that it hurt her to see me hurt and that she wants me to find someone else to have a family with. To be with a woman that could give me a child. She told me she was filing for a divorce. My heart is crushing. I didn’t mean to make her feel like she isn’t enough for me. I LOVE my wife so much. (We tried to do adoption and we didn’t qualify for it) if anyone says anything about adopting. I just don’t know what to do.