Hot make out turned bad???

So this weekend I went to see my boyfriend. We live 3.5 hrs apart so we only se each other on the weekends. We’ve been dating for a little more than a month and have only really made out. This past weekend, we were making out and I thought I could feel him get hard. I really wanted to move further but ended up getting triggered by him touching my sides in a particular that resembled a way that was done in my past when I was raped. He was really sweet about it and calmed me down, but then whispered “fuck, I’ll be right back” 10 minutes later he came back and just cuddled.

I guess I just feel bad. I feel like I teased him and just left him on read. Obviously I am inexperienced. Being raped had made me shy away from sexual acts so I’m 22 and still a “virgin”

Is it wrong that I feel terrible?