Nervous

In August My husband and I lost our baby boy at 13 weeks. I have never been so devastated, everything I do is colored with that experience. I am so grateful that I got the time with him that I did. We decided to try again immediately with no luck for the first two months but it would seem we have conceived again. But instead of being over the moon I am worried sick. I feel terrified to do anything, to eat the wrong thing, to tell anyone. Every little ache is heart wrenching. I'm so scared to lose another baby. I don't know how to cope. I feel like I can't get attached to my baby because I don't know when it will end. I don't know if I'm actually having a bad feeling about this pregnancy or if I'm just absolutely terrified to repeat history. I guess I'm just venting. Please just send your prayers and positive thoughts my way. Thank you all.