Gender disappointment

My gender appointment is on Monday and I’m just hoping I get the baby of my dreams. Gender disappointment is such a real thing. I don’t feel as if you are selfish for falling in love with a certain gender. I’m dreaming of my baby being a girl. I would actually be sad if it’s a boy. I’m sorry I’m not a hateful person, I know all babies are special. However I have waited so long for this moment, I have been through so much in the past. I had gotten pregnant before this (I don’t want to explain what happened). I have dreamed of my life being spent with a princess since my teen years. I always wanted to be a young mom to a girl. I just really hope I get her. 😔