Idk who I am anymore

I’m 18 I live with my 17 year old bf and Idk who I am anymore I find myself constantly wanting change but not doing anything about it I had a job and hated it. It messed with my mental health so bad and someone there was around someone with COVID and kept coming to work so I quit I got a lot of crap for it and I dropped out of high school after doing 10th grade for the second time ive been all over the place and I don’t even talk to my parents anymore I have no friends I feel like an absolute loser and I don’t have anyway of making a good friend idk what I’m doing with my life anymore and I don’t even know how put punctuation in my sentences 🙄 I suck