Sometimes feel disgusted after masturbating

Sometimes I masturbate a lot like twice a day or three times a days sometimes once a day and sometimes after I’m done I look at my vibrator and see I creamed on it and feel disgusted from masturbating😒 sometimes I really enjoy it but afterwords I feel disgusted by the fluids don’t know if I should be happy or if it’s normal to feel this was. Sometimes after sex and I notice the fluids too after I’m on top and get off of him and see it I feel disgusted but we keep going because so really love and enjoy sex if it was for me it would be all day but sometimes find it disgusting even sucking dick sometimes I might enjoy it for a while but then feel like throwing up and I want to please my husband also but sucking dick makes me feel sick in the stomach sometimes