I don't want my baby to be born 😞 RANT BELOW

Dont get me wrong, I'm so so excited for my firstborn baby that's due to arrive on the 20th. But I cannot stand my mother in law who is CONSTANTLY in my way and never listens to my wishes after I kindly ask her not to do something.

I asked for no baby shower/parties of any kind. I'm not a social person but she is and I told her not to throw any shower or party. Last weekend, she did without me or my husband's knowledge. She set it up at our house (that we share with my brother in law) in our backyard. I was upset.

Next, we were planning on keeping baby's name a secret until birth. Months ago out of excitement, my husband accidentally let the name slip out during a family dinner. I BEGGED her not to tell anyone or announce it until we do. Guess what was written on a banner and printed on t-shirts at the baby shower I kindly asked her not to throw.

I feel disrespected and unheard. My husband feels the same bc she doesnt listen to him either. Shes overwhelming, overbearing, and I know shes going to smother us once the baby is here. I almost feel like shes going to "take my baby away" or "not let me be a mom" to my own baby bc shes going to want him all the time.

I've been depressed and saddened. I sleep on the floor in baby's nursery to just enjoy the peace in our house before it becomes invaded by my parasite mother in law. I almost feel like I dont want my baby to be born just so I can have him to myself for as long as I can.

Because we share a house with my brother in law, my in laws are ALWAYS coming over, especially because they have 2 other grandchildren. Hubby and I were going to move but it became hard with baby on the way and covid.

I'm so sorry for the long post, I just need to vent 😞