It just sucks!

My husband and I have been ttc for almost a year now. I was ovulating over the first week of November which also happened to be my 30th birthday. So needless to say my hubby and I got all kinds of busy. It was like happy birthday to me! I just knew that this was going to be our time. I'm a religious person so I've been doing a lot of praying and hoping and wishing and a little bit of everything. Knowing that every little thing can help right? Well on a whim I bought one of those early detection pregnancy test and of course it was a bfn. I just want it so bad! I usually don't get my hopes up, but this time I did and I know it's still early but it's got me feeling really down. It just sucks!