i feel terrible

Last night, my mom handed me many articles to read. She had recently discovered that I’m having sex with my boyfriend. My boyfriend was not my first time and I had already went through so much pain wishing what I had waited for him to be my first. But my past is my past and I sort of got over it. Although, the articles that she gave me only talked about all the negatives about losing my virginity before marriage. Reading those only made me feel everything all over again and it really hurts. But I know life goes on and I can’t change it, I can only change what I do in the future. I’m just worried that losing my virginity before even dating my current boyfriend who I love has lowered my self worth and it will always feel like a burden.