Crazy Anxious

So I am 34+ weeks, my son

Wa stillborn in July 2018 at 39 weeks then we lost our daughter at 16 weeks in feb 2019, I had a chemical pregnancy in the July 2019 and for my bfp in january2020.

We have a date for a planned section because be at is transverse, also not sure my anxiety could cope with an induction, so I will have my section at 36+6 weeks, to not 2 and a bit weeks away but my god it’s so hard!!!

Went in with reduced movements on wed took them 7 mins to find a heart beat!! It’s just so difficult!!