Heartbroken

So Saturday morning I realize I was bleeding a little and as I’m early (8weeks) I new I needed to go in to get it looked at.

I should have known something was wrong as I had no symptoms like I did with my first. They couldn’t really give an answer as there wasn’t anything to go off of they did an ultrasound and found no heartbeat but they said there was still a chance and to come back Monday.

Today has been the worst day of my life I was just supposed to get my levels check and they said everything should be fine. Little before I was supposed to go in I started bleeding profusely and it wasn’t stopping and I felt like I was dying. I drove my dizzy self to the hospital and miscarried there. I lost my heart today and I don’t know how to go forward but I have to for my family.

Now all I can think of is all the stuff I’ll never get. I’ll never get to met my unborn baby.