Sex in Marriage

I have read some articles on this but I want to get some honest opinions on here. So last night my husband told me that when we have sex he thinks of other women. And that when he tried just thinking of us and me he got soft and we ended the sex with neither of us finishing. He grew up watching porn and what not and at the beginning of our marriage he cheated on me but we have been working through it ever since.

I’m at the point where I am tired of the back and forth and him not being sexually interested in me but trying. I don’t want it forced I only want him to have sex with me if he wants me.

My heart keeps breaking. He really is my best friend but I don’t know how I would deal with a sexless marriage just because I am not like those fantasy women. I don’t know what I am asking from you all but all opinions are welcomed at this point. Thank you 💕