First time mom/ PPD

Becoming a mom is the best feeling in the world ❤️ though parenting has its ups and down. Specially being a first time mom. I’m not gonna lie, sometimes it feels like I’m failing. I cry, I wipe my tears and I put back a smile. I love my baby girl. When I get sad I just look at her. I feel happy. It helps me mentally. After having postpartum depression, I’ve lost my self in a lot of ways. Sometimes it feels like no one understands. Sometimes it feels like people are judging me. It’s hard. It makes me sad, really, really sad. I know a lot of mom out there feel the same. In my family though, it feels like no one understands me. It feels like no one in my family understands the meaning of postpartum depression. It’s like they know but still ignoring. Sometimes I get mad at my husband as well. I know that I’m a mom and I should be the strong one but I just want someone to help me when I haven’t slept for almost two days, haven’t had a shower and I’m extremely exhausted! I can’t help but cry. After my postpartum depression, I guess I just haven’t fully healed yet. Parenting and mothering can be a rollercoaster but it’s BEAUTIFUL! Whenever my baby girl looks at me and smiles 😍 I fall in love with her all over again, like the first time I held her in my hands. She was so tiny and precious. I love her and I’ll love her till death! 🥰