Impatient FTM

Am I the only one who is an impatient FTM.

This is my first baby and I've been buying stuff and I really wanted to buy clothes for the baby but I cant buy anything specific cause i dont know the gender and I dont know if im the only who feels this way.

I have also so many fears with this being my first baby plus im not currently working so I really don't have much to keep myself busy so i think about the baby pretty much all hours im awake and i wont see it again until the anatomy scan. 😪 (7 weeks from now)

Am i just being irrational?