I know I’m going to receive a lot of hate for this post. But can you please try to be nice. I know my life is in shambles right now and I don’t need to be told that. I’m just searching for some advice here.

I’ve been with my husband for almost 7 years. 3 years married. We have a beautiful 2 year old and just recently experienced a terrible miscarriage. I feel like he’s more of a friend/roommate at this point. And this has actually been going on for quite some time. Maybe even before our daughter was born. We hardly spend time together. He comes home from work and has a list of things he wants to do. (Mow the lawn, work on building his garage, tinker in the barn..etc) he comes in to say hi and then I barely see him until he comes in to scarf his dinner down and then he’s back outside until our daughter’s bedtime. Then we sit and watch one or two tv shows as our relax time. Hardly speak. We don’t do anything as a family either really. Maybe once a month we go for a family bike ride. But mostly its just my daughter and I doin things. I’m so lonely. I’ve mentioned it to him a million times and nothing changes.

My ex boyfriend started messaging me a while back and we spent a couple months texting and I really enjoyed the company from him. But once my feelings started coming back for him we cut things off.

So this past weekend I went back to the city I lived in for 3 years before I got together with my husband. I have a ton of friends there.. and a few men I dated or hung out with. I’m a mom so I don’t get to get out much and it showed. I drank way too much. I ended up making out with a guy at this party and slept in the same bed. Nothing more was done. But now I’m having all these feelings of missing that life! And I don’t know if it’s because I’m craving the attention, or if Im really just not attracted to my husband anymore. He treats me great. I’m a stay at home mom so he supports us and says he wants to make me happy. But I’m not happy.

I should also mention I HATE having sex with him. It’s always a chore to me. I thought maybe I just lost my sex drive after I had kids but.. I WANTED to sleep with this man at the party so I’m thinking that’s NOT the issue.