Am I crazy???? Sorry it’s long

—- My boyfriend just got back from military training and he was gone about 3 months. This is the longest we’ve been apart and every time we would call he would go on about how much he missed me and it made me feel like i was doing something right.

—- He texts me that he doesn’t feel right being home and stuff which is totally understandable because he was in a tough environment for a while which i expect him to need time to adjust to civilian life. However he decides he wants time away from me after he was always saying how he couldn’t wait to see me again.

I suggested if he needs time we can take a break so he can focus on his own needs instead of a relationship.

— Fast forward to later that night... One of my best girl friends calls me and says “Girl did you see his last instagram post” And i immediately checked it out. The post consisted of pics of him with several girls with their arms around him all cozy and shit (assuming they were at the military training too). I was LIVID!!!!! but i didn’t say anything because it’s not my place to be. BUT he rarely ever posts me on his social media

—I’ve also bought him several gifts because i love spoiling him since he deserves it. But he never does anything for me that is spontaneous. He wasn’t even here for my birthday and he started some BS argument that ruined my day. When he did buy stuff for me it was always because we went out to eat and he complained about how expensive i am. (I pay the tip if he buys) this is for another time

—I’m worried because i’m so used to guys saying “I need time for myself” but every single time they end up leaving and i really don’t want to lose him but he is really pushing me to my limit..

I feel like i’m losing my mind :(