The FUCK?

I don’t have anywhere or anyone to say this to but my boyfriend’s mom who is pushing 60 with both parents alive vilified me when I broke down upon becoming an orphan.

Now her dad is saying he won’t take the next stage of treatment and she is in the mental hospital.

Excuse the fuck out of me.... but excuse the fuck out of me.

I’m crazy for being fucked up in my mid-20’s for being ORPHANED and you can just fucking deal with the CONCEPT of the REALNESS of losing your dad at FUCKING SIXTY and it’s okay for you to pop your noodle?

You can spread rumors about me and tell me I’m wrong or fake... FAKE for being authentic in the rawness of my grief but you, my dear, can lose it to the point of going into hospital custody? Excuse me???????????????? I’m questioned as viable... as a future member of your family... because I grieved openly. I don’t think people are better than other people but traditionally speaking HE would be marrying up... not me... it doesn’t MATTER but how are you really going to fabricate this to flip it around? Ignore it all day but flip that shit!!!!? BOY. I’m mad I even wrote that out but you got me FUCKED UP over here acting like I don’t come with benefits that you want your grandchildren to have............ and which you have never been able to provide for your family yet which my great grandfather provided for his. Excuse me Evelyn?!!! And you with ALLLLL your siblings to support you you have GONE OFF THE DEEP END off of what I had to deal with TWOFOLD with NO siblings AT LESS THAN HALF YOUR AGE... fuck!

I’m not understanding the lack of understanding. You tried to kill yourself with my boyfriend in your womb and you have the nerve to demonize me for depression related to PTSD....

My fury is petty and honestly, I pray for her.

I just feel a little outraged and would never say so out loud & needed to express it, period.