Even if, not only if

Jesus, I choose to worship you and adore you EVEN IF we never get a bfp. I don’t want to only praise you and glorify you when things go my way. Even if they don’t, Lord, you alone are worthy of praise. You are good even in the pain. I pray your will would be done and not mine, and I pray that you would use our infertility to strengthen my faith. That I would have an “even if” faith and not an “only if” faith. I pray that you would draw close to me during this hardship and let me come to know you more fully and deeply. I pray that if it be your will, that we would conceive this cycle and that we would raise our baby up to know you. I love you so much and I pray this all in the holy and precious name of Jesus Christ,

Amen