advice???? if you read this, thank you, for real

so im 32+4 today, 21 years old, & im really having a hard time mentally. this is going to be really long im sorry i just have no one else to turn to.

i have been working so hard on my mental health & have been on meds for some time which have helped SO much. my hormones are still insane but im managing. i moved from my home state of jersey to now the border of north carolina/SC. i moved into my mom’s place because she set up a whole nursery for me & the baby. my relationship with her has always been toxic, sometimes we have good days & im very much attached to her, but it is a very toxic relationship that we have that has led to verbal/physical abuse in the past & now its just verbal. i moved here with the promise & expectation of bettering my relationship with her that she had stated & wanted & made known, along with getting as much help as i can during this pregnancy, & having a good environment for my daughter when she is born. i have a wonderful job working as an assistant & client service coordinator at Banfield Pet Hospital that i LOVE, but everything i do is a fucking problem with my mom. i go to work, its a problem. i dont go to work, its a problem. i go to my doctors appointments, its a problem. i dont have a car (i am TERRIFIED of driving so the father of my child usually does, or i pay my siblings to take me places, or i pay for uber, or i pay a friend), is a problem. i make money, its a problem. i dont make money, its a problem. i dont give my mom money, its a problem. i spend my money as needed & sometimes wanted, its a problem. the list goes on & on. i try SO hard to make her so happy. my family gangs up on me so much because they all basically hate me & dont really give a shit about me because of my past (i was on drugs way before i got sober & then unexpectedly got pregnant well after i was clean). i am trying my absolute fucking best to do my best & be my best self. but lately, it has become so unbelievably uncomfortable & overwhelming for me to be here. its unreal. everyone outside of the family sees how i feel. they see what it’s doing to me. my uncle invited me to come stay with him back in jersey rent free for as long as i need until i am back on my feet 100% completely. my mom hates my uncle because he had taken me off the streets when i was on drugs & gave me a safe place to stay until i sobered up on my own & ive been clean ever since. all the hard work i have been doing to better myself just seems to always be counteracted when im treated like shit here, its a battle i shouldnt have to be fighting when im already fighting my mental health & doing a damn good job at that. my childhood friend came down to visit with my dog for this whole week. she leaves sunday, & i want to leave with her & go back to jersey. i know that this will upset my mom & i feel so fucking guilty about it but at the same time i need a fucking break. i know i can do whatever i want because im an adult, but she has put a lot of effort in for this baby, just not for me, & i know it isnt about me anymore, but i need my mental health to be straight so i can be the best mother i can be to my daughter. im due next month. im so scared because this environment is not healthy right now & im being blamed to the max when other people can see it isnt my fault. i need a break to get my mental back on track without being treated like im a stranger/not even a part of this family. i just dont want to upset my mom, or hurt her, even though she has hurt me so much & dragged me down (along with my siblings doing it to me as well). im so torn. if i leave, shes going to basically cut ties with me but at the same time i feel like she wont turn her back on me forever especially when her first granddaughter is coming into this world & shes been anticipating meeting her soon. but i dont know. i just need a giant regroup. i just need advice or some thoughts. should i stay and continue to suck it up and battle everything and everyone here until my mental health breaks and theres no turning back for me? or should i go to jersey and upset/hurt my mom after all she has done for this baby and would possibly disown me/shun me? idk, im just overwhelmed and trying to not hurt anyone even though im getting hurt myself. sorry for this being so long ..