Tiny Shoes to Fill💝

I have tiny shoes to fill.

After a forced abortion at the age of 16 by a boy a boy I thought loved me but ended up abusing me, I have tiny shoes to fill.

After a miscarriage at 20, with a mentally unstable man who threatened to shoot me and my family if he ever saw any of us again, I have tiny shoes to fill.

After finally finding the man I want to spend the rest of my life with, who has picked up with pieces I have left when the grief of losing my two babies hits me, I have tiny shoes to fill.

I know life isn’t easy, and I know life only hands you what it knows you can handle. But these tiny shoes will be the hardest things to fill. After heartbreak, abuse, threats, these tiny little shoes will be filled and the feet that fill them will receive nothing but kisses and love.

When I receive my rainbow baby it’ll be hard. Always knowing my life could have been different. But i’ve learned everything happens for a reason. So when you do happen my rainbow baby, no I won’t be angry at you for not being your mommy’s lost brothers or sisters, I will be nothing but happy to be able to count your fingers and toes every morning as if anything will happen to them in your sleep. I will be nothing but happy to change your dirty diapers whether they smell or not. I will be happy to kiss your cheeks and tickle your belly. Mommy will be happy to do whatever it takes to make a smile run across your face the rest of her life.

After all these things, I have tiny shoes to fill💝🌈