Im confused... any advice please

So this happened a while back when I wasn’t in a good place. I was really intoxicated and let’s just say X has stopped by I forgot to what. Anyways i just remember him having sex with me I kept telling him no but he just told me to shhh and put his hand around my throat. This is where it gets confusing for me because I was crying and kept telling him no but it felt good to me.

We still talk but a while back it just hit me of what actually happened and I try avoiding him or not seeing him at all.

I guess I just want to know if I’m overreacting since it felt good... I’m so confused