I believe, but help my unbelief! 911.

Hi sisters. 911 for prayer 🥺 Just for more clarity & for God to communicate to me again & faith. God gave me a promise about 10 months ago. I call it a promise because He was so very clear about it, in a sense that over the 3 days that I fasted and prayed on it He gave me around 12 things that directed to it. And even after I was done fasting, He kept revealing a couple more reassuring signs. It was mind-blowing. But what I see in front of me now is soo contradictory to what I feel in my Spirit that God gave me 10 months ago. It’s like how can it come to pass? Bc right now...it doesn’t look like it could not one bit. And I hate it because it makes me go “Did God realllly say...? 🐍👺☹️”. My spirit believes what God revealed to me, but my flesh is looking at how right now it looks unlikely to happen. For better words, it’s been really difficult lately to keep my eyes off the waves and on His face. Anything + prayer would help ❤️